May 5, 2010


Rodliz’s Nest

Happy Mothers Day to all Mom!
 (my relatives, my friends, school mates, blogger mates, flatmates and all mom out there)


I hope the next time I'll be greeting all mom a Happy Mothers Day I can greet myself as well. For this week topic at Couple's Corner which is meeting our mothers...let me then introduce to you my very own mom. She is Ms. Herminia Ferrer, turning 55 this coming October. Currently she is living at Cavinitan, Virac, Catanduanes together with my half sis/bro's.

I could say and I have mentioned it already to my other blog that we don't really have a close mother and daughter relationship. For so many many reason i hated her while I was growing up from a little girl to a young lady. There are many things that she did not understand why I acted so mean to her before..... which later she have known it coz I wrote her a letter when she was working in Manila just to support my studies in college. Sometimes I really feel sad that maybe I am not getting pregnant because I once told her I don't owe her anything and I am not dreaming to have a baby of my own coz they say you can only payback to your mom when you become a mom also. 

But now things has change...whatever effort and sacrifices am having now while working here in the Middle East it's because of my mom. I hope that through the help I'm giving to her and my sibling somehow it's one way of paying her back. I know it won't be enough to ease all the pain I've caused her when I was young till I got married but I am praying that through the years she will know that I am so sorry for hurting her so much before. I love her...she's my mother still. I haven't thanked her for all the sacrifices she has done to me but in due time..............




If I'm not close to my mom...more to my MIL. I've known her since I was young. She is Mrs. Lucy P. Tomanglao. If I hated my mom before... now it's her that i hate. The last time I saw her was during our vacation last year. She talk to me and she acted so nice but it cannot change the fact that she/they hurted me so much that even up to now I can't move on for the pain they have caused me. Only time....time...time...time will heal its wound.....

For sure whatever I shared today maybe it's not the thing you all expect from me...but that's it...Happy CC anyway..

5 comments:

Mommy Liz said...

Ayan, naibulalas mo na ang iyong frustrations towards your mother and MIL. Well, hindi naman lahat tayo eh close sa ating mothers di ba? so, this meme is to share what we feel, and that's what you feel.

Ngapala, don't blame yourself for not having kid yet, di dahil sa sinabi mo before na ayaw mo magka anak eh kaya di ka nabubuntis,. everything happens for a reason. I will pray na sana magkaanak na kayo ni Marlon, para masaya di ba? OT lang ang need dyan, hahaha! wala namang me diprensiya sa inyo.

Saka ang mga hinanakit sa ating mga mother or mIL, kinakalimutan yan para makapag move on tayo. I know it's better said than done, at hindi lahat ng tao eh pare pareho na madaling makakalimut sa nakaraan. Isipin mo lang na kugn wala sila, wala kayo ni Marlon dito sa mundo. Di ba?

sheng said...

Thanks Mommy Liz...ang haba nun ah..

Hmmm...masarap din pala ung feeling that someone somehow may nagbabasa at nagbibigay ng mumunting payo or reactions sa kung ano man ang mga hinaing natin sa buhay...

Hehehe....naisip ko lang po yan...hay sana nga po....healthy nmin kami pareho pero sabi nga ng karamihan baka nga nde pa oras...

As in sinabi nio pa po mahabang panahon ang healing time ko...pero of course thankful na rin kahit na ganun....they we're still the great mom of our lives...

AC said...

ay, ako bitin... so di nga ito ineexpect ko... hahaha!!! I read kase before sabi mo sana may topic about mothers... and I know there's a pain in your heart, kaso nabitin ako...wahahaha!!!

it's all right, sis... never mind nalang your MIL... hahaha!!! what's good is you're making up with your own mom now... ako I don't think I can ever make up with my own mom... di keri ng powers ko... kahit siguro sa huli... *bad*

tatess said...

nung binabasa ko ito, ang una kong naisip ay masyado kang bitter sa buhay. forgive and forget ,makakgaan yan sa loob mo.hindi mo naman kailangan makisama sa MIL mo .wag mo na lang pansinin at deadma lang as long as andyan si hubby na tunay na nagmamahal at nag aalaga sa yo.

the most important thing is you and him ,happy together.at tungkol sa baby .in HIS time ,darating din yan .kami nga ni hubby after 5 years saka lang bibigyan ni Lord ng anak. ako na nga nawawalan ng pag asa pero si hubby ko ang laging nagpapaalala na bahala si Lord.

well. remember ,andito lang kami to hear all your frustrations and happiness in life. masarap kasi sa dibdib na nailalabas natin lahat di ba. alam ko yan at isa ako sa maraming hinanakit sa buhay dati pero nung makilala ko si hubby naging magaan na dibdib ko dahil sa kanyang pang unawa at walang hanggang pag ibig.

sorry at haba rin ng koment ko.

kimmy said...

that was a sad story about your mom. but, you're still lucky to be given a chance to make it up to her. good luck!

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